What’s the opposite of gainfully? Lossfully? Well, now that I am lossfully unemployed, I find planning out my days especially exciting. Contrary to popular belief, there’s actually a lot to do when you don’t work. I mean, you sleep in ’til 10, then make breakfast, shower, dress and do your makeup, that takes you to at least 12 pm and then your day is practically half over!
Before my last day of…
I wasn’t going to write this. I debated announcing this on any form of social media or just even telling anyone. I have only let a few people know and for a while, I was enjoying the secret. Subtly slipping out of a party is more my style. However, those who know me well know that I have been struggling with this decision for a while and having finally made it, it feels only right to stand by it and to be proud of myself.
Yesterday, I quit my job.
Not only is this a statement, a news alert, a way to tell my friends and family what is going on in my life, but this is also a love letter to the community and life I am leaving behind. For the past two and a half years, I let a company and it’s people into my life. And leaving is scary and quite frankly, weird. But the longer you sit on a decision, the longer you stew in your own thoughts, the more stuck you get. The harder it becomes to leave and to move on and to once again gain momentum.
I don’t want to dwell on reasons why I am leaving, I will only say that I felt stuck.This was not the life I wanted. I consider the past two years valuable but it’s not the end of the road. I don’t know where I will go or what I will do.
It would be easy to wrap this up in a Disney-esque ‘ride off into the sunset’ ending with text that flows over the screen reading ‘live your life’ like a hipster tumblr post but that’s not the case. What lies ahead of me is hard work but having spent the last little while in a daze, I feel like hard work is needed.
I don’t want to say that I am hopeful, because hope is a full dinner and an empty stomach come morning. I want to say that I am resolved to do and be better.